I Am Bold and Courageous

My mantra for 2019 is “I am bold and courageous.” A couple of years ago, I felt called to move to Nashville, TN, after living in the same town for over 20 years. It was a big leap of faith to make such a big change. I went from living in a small town where everywhere I went, I knew people to a good size city where I knew no one. At the time of my move, I had recently finished writing Spiritual Springboard, a guide to knowing God personally. In my naivety, I figured since I had followed the nudge to move, God would give me direction and make arrangements to help promote the book He had helped me write. However, He had other plans for me.

After I was settled into our new home, it became apparent; it was not time to promote the book yet. The book was ready, but I sure wasn’t. There was too much healing work I needed to do before I could be an authentic representative for the book’s marketing. For the past year and a half, God has put me on a healing crash course. It has been tough and so hard realizing how I stifled myself because of subconscious belief patterns. Beliefs such your value comes from your work ethic, don’t bother anyone by asking for help or for what you need, play small, so others don’t feel bad about themselves, be nice even if that means neglecting yourself or your truth, don’t be messy, it’s not ok and don’t speak up if you disagree. Then there were these fears, fear of being seen, fear of what others think, fear of being wrong, fear of using my voice, fear of rejection, and even fear of authenticity and intimacy. Yeah, I have been a mess a lot over the past year or so, but I have also gained so much more freedom and joy. Healing these beliefs I have carried around with me for 40 plus years doesn’t happen overnight. It is a continual process of self-observation, awareness, new action, and a whole lot of God’s grace to help break the habitual ways of being.
I now understand why it wasn’t time for me to market the book. I was an inner mess and didn’t even know it. I was also ill-prepared to be rejected. I had not overcome the fear of what others would think about my message to promote Spiritual Springboard successfully. I was way short on courage, and there was nothing bold about me. Even if God had helped me get the book out there, I would not have been able to hang onto any success, it might have brought me. It’s kind of like those who win the lottery, and 10 years later, they are broke because they didn’t have the skills or knowledge to hold onto their blessing. The same would have happened to me.

However, I am finally ready! I am done playing small, and I am taking bold steps to promote Spiritual Springboard and myself. I am courageously freeing myself to be messy and authentic. I am ready to share my God-given message and talents to serve humanity. I am bold and courageous!

Team Spirit

Team Spirit is made of all our contributors who's focus is consistent with Spiritual Springboard's mission. We are all on our own spiritual journey, still seeking and learning. We are excited to guide, teach, encourage, support, love and offer services to others who have committed to seeking spiritual awareness.

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